Category: Seronegative Arthritis

Learning to Say No

Learning to Say No

  What’s really funny is that I see posts about learning to say “no” all the time.  But they are ALL geared towards children.  Every parent knows the value of being able to say no to your child and mean it.  Set those boundaries, stick to them , and you and your kids will be…

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I Have Lost My Muchness

I Have Lost My Muchness

Sometimes the tears are just below the surface.  There are days that just updating my Facebook Fan Page with the latest news from my various doctors appointments and medical treatments makes me want to burst out crying.  Sometimes it’s because I want to scream at the universe, “Why me!?  Why are you doing this!?”  Sometimes…

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I See You Staring. Trust Me, You Aren’t That Smooth

I May Not Look Sick, But You Don't Look Stupid. Looks Can Be Deceiving

  I have bipolar disorder, so I’m no stranger to people not understanding me.  It’s hard when your moods are iffy to commit to things and that makes me flaky sometimes.  I’m used to people not understanding what is wrong with me or that I’m ill because they can’t see it.  And arthritis is no…

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When Lonely is Too Small a Word…

When Lonely is Too Small a Word // itsnotmeyousuck.com

Sometimes, I want to type that I’m lonely.  But lonely doesn’t seem to do justice to all that I feel inside.  Lonely denotes a young woman who might be having a hard time and who may need someone to talk to, but I am so much more. In the months since my diagnosis I have…

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Angrily Thankful

I am both angry and thankful.  It doesn’t seem like those two emotions can co-exist in one person for very long, but it’s true.  I have these intense periods of wanting to cry for the little things like wiggling my toes and then have intense periods of being angry at the universe. My most recent…

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Thoughtfully Thankful

November rolls around each year and everyone begins to post the mundane parts of their day they are thankful for.  “I’m thankful my coffee machine turned on on time this morning,”  “I’m thankful for a car that works.”  It’s not that I don’t appreciate the sentiment.  I truly do.  I think we could all do…

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Today I Cried Because I am Selfish

I recently posted about weakness and how I was taught not to cry.  Not even alone.   This past weekend, I traveled a ways from home with my husband to attend military ball.  When we arrived I developed a severe allergic reaction to something unknown and ended up in the ER.  I returned just hours after…

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